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A Season of Rest October 30, 2009

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I miss warm sunny summer.  But when Autumn brings washing refreshing rain I welcome the sparkling feeling of clean in the air.  Plants soak in the nourishment and curl up in the earth for their season of rest.

I usually dread the cold dreary winter.  But this year I designate winter as a season of rest with dreams of flowers poking their heads out of the earth in Spring.

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Bad Dream April 28, 2009

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I dreamed last night that Amy was alive.    In the hospital, staff had wheeled her to another room and I thought she died.  After I left they wheeled her back into her room.  That was almost 5 months ago.  All this time while I’ve been aching  over the loss of my daughter, Amy was alive and healthy.  Everyone else in my family knew and no one told me.  I was so upset I couldn’t quit crying and screaming.  Then I woke up.  Amy’s death certificate is still in my closet.  I still want her back.

I got out of bed, dressed and left the house to do an errand.  I saw one of Amy’s high school friends at the store.  Amy’s friend gave me a big hug.  I needed a hug.

Grief April 26, 2009

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I used to think grief was a terrible emotional pain; and that’s true. 

When my daughter died, I found out that grief is also a very real physical pain deep in the pit of your stomach.

Isolation June 4, 2008

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How would you deal with living in an 8-foot square room and never being able to leave?  A meal is delivered to your room three times a day.  You have a sink, toilet, mattress and a blanket but nothing else.  You do not have books, paper, pencil, pictures, TV, music….no window…nothing else. 

Green June 3, 2008

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Earth displays beautiful landscapes, even when using only shades of green.

Army green, bright green, British racing green, camouflage green, chartreuse, yellow-green, emerald, fern green, forest green, hunter green, jade, jungle green, kelly green, lime, moss green, olive, persian green, pine green, sea green, shamrock green…

What is your favorite shade of green?

Puddles May 25, 2008

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My kindergarten teacher told me, “Don’t walk through puddles.  You’ll get your feet wet.”

I recommend walking through puddles.  Drag your feet and watch the ripples slosh.  Stomp and make a splash.

Include puddles in your life.  Get your feet wet.

 

Hidden Joy May 15, 2008

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You dread facing the next few days and look forward to moving that piece of your life to the past.

But remember to watch for the golden moments that glitter among the pain.  Difficulty and joy are intertwined.