Bad Dream April 28, 2009
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I dreamed last night that Amy was alive. In the hospital, staff had wheeled her to another room and I thought she died. After I left they wheeled her back into her room. That was almost 5 months ago. All this time while I’ve been aching over the loss of my daughter, Amy was alive and healthy. Everyone else in my family knew and no one told me. I was so upset I couldn’t quit crying and screaming. Then I woke up. Amy’s death certificate is still in my closet. I still want her back.
I got out of bed, dressed and left the house to do an errand. I saw one of Amy’s high school friends at the store. Amy’s friend gave me a big hug. I needed a hug.
Grief April 26, 2009
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I used to think grief was a terrible emotional pain; and that’s true.
When my daughter died, I found out that grief is also a very real physical pain deep in the pit of your stomach.
Isolation June 4, 2008
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How would you deal with living in an 8-foot square room and never being able to leave? A meal is delivered to your room three times a day. You have a sink, toilet, mattress and a blanket but nothing else. You do not have books, paper, pencil, pictures, TV, music….no window…nothing else.
Green June 3, 2008
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Earth displays beautiful landscapes, even when using only shades of green.
Army green, bright green, British racing green, camouflage green, chartreuse, yellow-green, emerald, fern green, forest green, hunter green, jade, jungle green, kelly green, lime, moss green, olive, persian green, pine green, sea green, shamrock green…
What is your favorite shade of green?
Cream Cheese Spritz Cookies May 26, 2008
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Cream together 1 cup softened butter and 1 8-oz package cream cheese. Gradually add 2/3 cup sugar. Beat until light and fluffy. Stir in 1 teaspoon vanilla. Gradually add 2 cups flour to creamed mixture.
Shape dough into a ball and chill thoroughly. Press dough from a cookie press 2 inches apart onto ungreased cookie sheets. Bake at 400° for 8 to 10 minutes or until very lightly browned. Remove to wire racks to cool. Makes about 4 dozen yummy cookies.
Puddles May 25, 2008
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My kindergarten teacher told me, “Don’t walk through puddles. You’ll get your feet wet.”
I recommend walking through puddles. Drag your feet and watch the ripples slosh. Stomp and make a splash.
Include puddles in your life. Get your feet wet.
Pride May 21, 2008
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“The proud man can learn humility, but he will be proud of it.”
–Mignon McLaughlin
Amy May 19, 2008
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New college graduate with honors–cum laude–and most outstanding student in your field. But your Humanitarian award best describes you.
You came to this world as a ray of sunshine. As a small child you picked yourself up from a skinned knee and still offered a smile. You grew to a smart, talented adult woman who invents new ways to make the world a better place for every life she touches.
The Number Two May 18, 2008
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One of the earliest classification of numbers into groups was on the basis of their divisibility by the number two.
Numbers exactly divisible by two are called even and those that leave a remainder of one when divided by two are called odd.
All numbers belong in one of these two groups.
Hidden Joy May 15, 2008
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You dread facing the next few days and look forward to moving that piece of your life to the past.
But remember to watch for the golden moments that glitter among the pain. Difficulty and joy are intertwined.
